a song to feel

"Regrets collect like old friends

Here to relive your darkest moments

I can see no way, I can see no way

And all of the ghouls come out to play

...

And I've been a fool and I've been blind

I can never leave the past behind

I can see no way, I can see no way

I'm always dragging that horse around

Our love is questioned, such a mournful sound

Tonight I'm gonna bury that horse in the ground

So I like to keep my issues drawn

But it's always darkest before the dawn

 

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa

Shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, shake it out, ooh whoa

And it's hard to dance with a devil on your back

So shake him off, oh whoa"

Florence + The Machine

"Shake it Out"

photo by Sabina Tabakovic

Also, it's almost fall and I needed some new pieces for the cooler weather that is right around the corner. Pretty excited about these lovelies :)

homesick for a place that doesn't even exist

This past March, B and I drove back to our hometown, for what we called "a day in the life of Kayla and Bailey at 16." We used to have these infamous drives at 16 where she would pick me up, we would drive around our small, small town for hours on end just listening to music and taking photos.

This was our last infamous drive through the town where we grew up.

At 24 & 25 we drove to the places that made us feel 16 again. 

. . . . . .

"You know that point in your life when you realize the house you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of a sudden even though you have some place where you put your shit, that idea of home is gone.

You'll see one day when you move out it just sort of happens one day and it's gone. You feel like you can never get it back. It's like you feel homesick for a place that doesn't even exist. Maybe it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't ever have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something.

I don't know, but I miss the idea of it, you know.

Maybe that's all family really is.

A group of people that miss the same imaginary place."

- Garden State -
. . . . . . 

nerd alert

Got my new glasses today :)

They are nerdy, and ridiculous, but I love them.

don't hate the playa

During my last trip to Chicago I stopped in the cutest little shop over in Ravenswood called Orange Beautiful and was lucky enough to meet the owner, Emily, and pick up a few of her pieces for my office. These make me laugh every time I see them. I'll be adding more odds and ends to this wall eventually, but for now,

I'm kinda loving it as is.

 

 

And these sketches of awesome vintage cameras and me with my camera? I took photos for a friend today of products for her new Etsy store and she gave these to me as a gift. Can't wait to get these up on my walls - most thoughtful gift, ever.

sleepwalk with me

I watched this movie for the first time yesterday. And right as it ended, I hit play and watched it again. And before bed, I watched it a third time. It is really that good.  

My favorite lines from the movie:

"I think to be a comedian, you have to be a little bit delusional.  Particularly starting out, there's just so much failure and amidst that failure you have to tell yourself that it's going quite nicely. Because, if you didn't, you would just never get on stage again. You'd be like, 'well, I guess human beings don't like me.' That's a hard reality to face."

"I think falling in love for the first time is such a transcendent feeling, you know, it's like eating pizza flavored ice cream. Your brain can't even process that kind of joy."

"I think our whole lives, no matter how low our self-esteem gets there's a part of us that thinks 'I have a secret special skill that no one knows about' and eventually we meet someone whose like 'you have a secret special skill' and you're like 'I know, so do you, let's eat pizza flavored ice cream together' and that's love. It's a mountain of pizza flavored ice cream and delusion."

a day in the life

a song to feel

"Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die, I'm a little bit scared of what comes after. Do I get the gold chariot? Do I float through the ceiling? Do I divide and fall apart? 'cause my bright is too slight to hold back all my dark."

- Jesus Christ, Brand New - 

 

photo by Anna Di Prosper

This self-portrait series by Di Prosper is simply amazing. 

Yet another reminder that I have so much to learn and so, so far to still go.